October 2004

Today was the last tutorial class (for 1st years) which i took.
Really i think that i learnt a lots of things while teaching.
I hope that they (first year guyz) also would have learnt from
whatever i taught them.
My first and last aim was to make them learn how
to learn.


Really when i look myself three years back from now, i feel surprised !!How was i able to manage so much sincerity those days ?

I used to get up at 4’o clock in the morning. I used to attend all the classes..I didnot bunk even any tutorials in the first semester.

Really I was very sincere those days.

And now there is a new pankaj here confessing in his own blog about the drastic change happend to his ways of living or leading life. These days i am doing nothing..really nothing..
Its not that i have nothing to do..classes , FYP, courses, Tutorials , my own projects etc A lots and lots of things to do .. but what am i doing ?

Bunking classes, listening to radio (vividh bharti), doin a lots and lots of bc with friends,watching movies have become the rule of the day.
Really i have changed a lot.
It is said that change is the law of nature but change like this..nay

I dont say that there should not be masti in life but at the cost
of studies ..never..also i am not in favour of becoming a bookworm
To me there should be a balance between masti and studies..

I woke up today at 6 in the morning.
After getting fresh , i checked my mail and was looking for some
good tutorials on Fast wavelet transform ( FYP stuff :(( ).
Then someone knocked on the door..it was utkarsh..
Really I was surprised..how come utkarsh woke up now at
around 7:00. I thought that there must be smthing wrong with
him..My surprise went to heights when he asked me for
breakfasts..utkarsh and breakfast..the two extremes
how can it be possible..

There was a time when utkarsh was rarely seen in the mess..
his dinner lunch and breakfast ..all was just a packet of
lays or haldiram’s chips

I am alone
as always
sitting still
peering out
into the open sky
pondering at life itself.

I am alone
when I’m hurt
or filled with anger.
I am just here
in this life
as one insignificant being.
Why am I here?
I am alone.

I bought mobile today.
The inbuilt FM radio there makes me naustalgic because
in my preparation days only radio was my best friend.
After coming to IIIT i really missed a lot, radio programs
like chhaya geet , hello farmayish, bioscope ki baatein,
aapke anurodh pe, natya tarang , pitaara etc.

Today I saw the blog of utkarsh. I really liked it.
And i also got inspired to have my own blog at which
i can also post whatever i desire and whatever i wanna
throw out of my heart.
The result is this blog…